totallycrazed

RUSH

2010-12-19T12:43:00.002+08:00

oh yayness 2 nights of hardcore. man did i need that party up weekend of release! now however i'm gonna suffer for me crazed fun. assignments due on monday and i havent begun! i'm so screwed and yet i'm here typing this. this is so not good haha. but it's not as if i have any idea how to write my feature article right now. i just feel like eating what it is i'm writing about. pompanickles (not the german bread! just my polite curse word..ironic innit...polite-curse-word. HA!)

Anyway found awesome new bands :D Hearts!

Past the work and the partying i've done nothing haha life is basically a running around of party work party work. and then more work. haha

I'm just growing fat eating all the christmas goodies. it's crazy. i baked on friday with miss awesomez and made so many cupcakes we had to buy a whole new tray just to fit them all. haha and macarons were a success!!!!!! :D yayness. now i just dont know what to do with the egg yoke. haha so that was friday afternoon for you. friday night was crazy at home club.

Met awesome people. very entertaining. and turns out very talented. It was a rockin night with crazy dancing and terrific music.

Sat was crazy too. i had like 2 hours of sleep and went for rehearsals followed by ambs party which was fun...no one gets that crazy with charades but them haha and then it was off to shar's bday! now that one was hilarious and massively loopy. but so damn fun! i'd totally do it all over again.

massively swamped

Cherrypotato

JUST ANOTHER UPDATE

2010-12-15T02:35:00.002+08:00

Ok so life's getting crazy with school and every other thing going on. it's not nice or good or happy. it's just happening. that's about all i can say. nothing very good to make all the other screw ups seem ok. but i'm just being eh about everything. the only thing i really care alot about now is the internship i have to do next sem and i really wanna do it at mindshare but i dont know what's happening with that right now. i pray hard that i get it. anyway past that i've been trying to find time to write music. my head's been buzzing with ideas but the time i have just isnt giving me the option to do so. i know i'm writing this post now and that's time... but i cant exactly strum my guitar or press piano keys at this time so it doesnt count. and when i can i have to be in school on the other side of this little red dot so i cant exactly do anything. Right now my head's stumped so i cant seem to get any work done. AND TMR I HAVE TO BE UP AT 8! hahahahaha

anyway the only major thing that has happend would probably be feng shui master talk and that was pretty cool and pretty accurate so i'm thinking i'll listen to that and that kinda gives me a clearer view in life and stuff. you can always argue and say that's just stupid but i guess that's just what i need. sth to follow and tell me what's going to happen instead of just swimming in this big blue sea trying to find land somewhere out of sight and just swimming aimlessly. Knowing this, even if "this" is a lie, is at least a direction i can follow. But i kinda think it's pretty accurate so HA i'm becoming mummy. hahaha not such a bad thing (:

Love my mummy. OH!!! Swannie left for the UK to study for a year so unfortunate for me i now lack a sister. but that's kinda helped me and mummy get closer so that's nice. we're happy tgt on this island so it's all good (:

Problems arent coming from my life, or at least not problems i care about, except from school at the mo. and i hope the school stuff gets settled soon so i dont have this nagging "shit i'm screwed" feeling every morning when i wake up to go to school.

Well comfort in my music and comfort in making my earrings.

Check it out. i have a youtube page. i dont do very good recordings of my songs somehow....my live performances seem so much better... http://www.youtube.com/user/lyrehczyt

Oh and check it out i have a blogshop now... http://design-me-something.blogspot.com

awesome. well that's about it for all you very odd people for reading this blog when i barely ever update. thank you for sticking with it.

PS: i'm kinda writing a story too. but not really getting far with it with all this time shiz... hopefully i manage to settle things in the hols.

ttyl

Ctyz

Blogshop

2010-08-06T09:33:00.001+08:00

Check out my blog shop!!

http://design-me-something.blogspot.com

i'll be selling earings :D

it's been so long

2010-05-12T16:20:00.002+08:00

Wow.. it's been forever since i've updated this blog! haha i went from happy at baybeats, fun at church, stress in school, heart break and now i'm just FML...

seriously...im so bored of life. The only thing that's interestingly new would be the fact that i'm finally single after like 2 freaking years of not experiencing single-hood! haha sth new for me to figure out again.

well anyway past that emo topic.. school's pretty boring. i'm still in heatwave so that's still fun! :D i'm trying for ambass and i'm hoping i get in (: i'm sick yet again but what's the surprise?!

Met a new group of people which i like quite a bit (: they are nice and fun. it's good to know a different group, then i dont have to hang out with the same one now that things are awkward thanks to certain change of plans..

anyway back to talking about this new group of people! they are a really fun bunch :p ROCK BAND FTW~ hahaha it's crazy fun with them (: Met them when i went drinking :p haha

Went clubbing too. i think i could get addicted to it if it werent for my mind stressing about school. so far i've only been twice but i like it anyway :p both times to butter factory. liking the music :p totally planning to do this more since the people are really fun and crazy! haha su went with me the second time and we did silly dances!!! hahaha

Right now i'm so bored that i actually rmbed i have a blog and came and wrote... but my brains so stoned i cant even think of what to write so this is about all i've got :P

ttyl (to those poor people that actually read this un updated blog )

Baybeats!

2009-08-31T02:56:00.002+08:00

yea i know it's been like forever since i last updated but what's new haha i suck at updating this thing haha and for the poor sad people that read this dismal blog here's the long awaited update haha!

BAYBEATS!!! it's the first time i've gone for baybeats and it's the first time i moshed (though i suck at it since i'm way too small for my own good) and it's only fitting that i went with new people i met for the first time. (though obviously i knew some other people too haha) keith, aaron, sherman, alson, james K were there with me along with BERNICE!!! and christian (:D) and of course the cool new bunch i met only a handful of times before this if not then i just met! haha but they're all fun so it was a blast!!! definitely wanna keep in touch with them. and definitely wanna go for baybeats next year! haha

ANBERLIN!! that was the best part! Anberlin playing on the last nite as the last set of baybeats....wow! the mosh was crazy (and i would not have survived had it not been for the great wall of back support thanks to keith, alson and leroy. and of course we were protected from the onslaught in the front by the solo bodyguard joel! haha and sherman and hwa chong boy (AKA aaron) did side protection every once in a while when they werent lost in the mosh) haha anyway it was so fun! i'm so worn out! but it's a good worn out not a bad worn out haha! (btw sorry to the great wall of baybeats (aka back protectors!) about the pony tail slaps XD haha so did not realise it haha! big thanks for the protection!)

totally indescribably happy now haha not to mention my brain is dying cause i'm so tired..haha so i'm going to sleep! haha

ps: it's hols already so hahaha!!!!! freedom..i can already feel my brain melting into gooo! haha

2009-05-18T11:02:00.004+08:00

heydiho i know i just blogged like a couple of hours ago but you should know by now that that has never stopped me XD hahahahaha anyway now to tell you more in depth about poly life! :D haha it's been rather exciting! i mean past the new topics and stuff (which are totally weeee!!! but not the point) first i must say i am going to grow fatter than i already am!!! this school has really yummy food and you know that i love to eat and cant help it so what to do!?! i eat loads now....fat faT FAT! how horrid XD haha but i love the food anyway XD haha second i must say that the people here are so fun loving and we're all so alike (especially the fact that we all speak english!!! not mother tongue (and cant speak mother tongue in fact XD ) hahahaha) my class is great tooo!!!! no such thing as cliques (i wonder if i spelt that right??) and stuff :D everyone's nice to everyone and everyone gets along with everyone so it's all good and i'm happy :D haha ok so the rest of the people are just as nice like no one seems as if they'll turn up to be back stabbing and all that so it's nice (: Basically i'm happy! haha what an obvious thing to state XD well anyway i have a feeling i'm just going about the same point cause i'm so blur right now so i'll leave u be now haha! tahdeeda!

I have record

2009-05-18T08:45:00.002+08:00

Damn i have a record for transfering schools XD i think i've got a problem XD haha i transfered in sec 1 to TKGS now i transfered from JC to poly! but i love it XD haha life's fun! haha work load is murder but it's fun work so it's ok XD haha (who thought i'd ever say that XD hahahahahaha) well i like school loads now haha lessons are so cool and like class is fun and my classmates are fun and the best thing is that i got into radio Heatwave!! haha and i'm co-hosting with like my classmate whom i click brilliantly with so it rocks!! haha basically you can tell i'm happier and way excited XD gtg btw haha i'm running late for class ahhh!! ok enjoy reading all you sad people that read this miserable blog i never seem to update XD hahahaha

OMG

2009-02-22T14:57:00.002+08:00

yes OMG school is so overwhelming!! T. T there's so much to do and i'm so confused....wah...well there's still nothing to blog about since all i've done is get tortured by the prison disguised as school. at least 6 hrs a day 5 times a week. sure as hell feels more like 24/7...gwah...gtg study stupid econs and try and understand math.........screwed!!!!!!

2009-01-25T19:32:00.002+08:00

YO!!! new year new class room and the pile of guilt still stacked on my table XD haha! HW still undone and my mind complete mush since school's began XD hahahahahahahahaha anyway taylor rocks!!! her songs are so cute! my favs " you belong with me" and "the way i loved you" (: they's really nice (: anyway still in love with josiah leming but still cant get the songs... haha ah well life's been fun and careless (: no longer moping over stupid situations since all situations are cleared (: now i'm back to my care free weedidididi self (: its J2 i'm screwed and the world spins anyway haha nothing i can do bout that (: anyway i'm gonna stone as i please now haha stone till it gets so dry it hurts to close my eyes and they water (:

tadidah!

bored!

2008-12-31T20:28:00.002+08:00

well i'm bored enough to blog twice today XD ohohohoho ! this will make up for the lack of posts next year haha well speaking of next year... i'm going to celebrate the new year with my family :D yay though happy is not the way i'd describe the coming of 2009.
still what are you gonna wish anyone? "depressing new year to you"? that'll be horridly forboding XD haha though it does foreshadow the A level year ahead...sigh hw still untouched and piled at the corner of my table...really in no mood to do it...in fact my mood is that to be spiteful and cry which is rather contradictory of each other. HAHA!!! oh well...that's the life i lead...contradictory and surprising....happiness can flip in a second to complete and utter depression but ah well...that's never stopped me from being loopy. the best remedy is not giving a shit to anything. oh came up with another phrase....(the opposite of love isnt hate. its nonchalance. ) anyway gtg its time for din din!! :D yay food!

2008-12-31T12:21:00.003+08:00

well its been a while since i updated but! i still have nothing to say XD haha all i know is that school is starting soon and i havent done my hw!!!! ahhhh!!! i'm so screwed but i dont care haha hols have been fun up till yesterday haha ah well .... what to do XD haha oh!!! i've started to watch gossip girl and i fell in love with josiah leming on youtube! haha he rocks i love :one last song" haha i attempt and fail dismally at playing it on the piano haha! ah well XD i posted the vid on the blog for yall to watch :D

Random phrases i thought of recently XD
1)i never said i wanted a typical fairytale of a life... i never asked you to be the prince in shining armor, to ride up to me and sweep me off my feet onto the glimmering white steed. my version is falling in love with the stumbling stable boy, who would show me the beauties of the world not the beauties gold can buy. but then i think again...people want the prince for a reason....the prince will never break your heart. the stable boy will.

2)heart break is not the feeling of your heart shattering but the feeling of your world collapsing and tears overflowing.

3)i told you once before you were my world. can you imagine how it feels to lose your world in seconds? its tears that overflow rivers and a still heart sitting in a hollow space within the chest. its the end.

DONE! haha i know its so morbid haha but i had a rather morbid night XD haha thus!!!! well anyway......i'm going to count down tonight to 2009 and hopefully i'll be happy (: well nothing much to say now just that josiah leming rocks and people should listen to him!!!!!! go to you tube people!!! (well whatever dismal lifeless people read this blog anywa XD haha )

continuation of birthday post

2008-11-21T03:27:00.007+08:00

ok this video couldnt be uploaded with the previous post so i'm putting it here (:

i dont understand why this is so darn big a video file its like a seriously short and random cute video XD haha shouldnt take this long!!!!! haha well now you people know the extent of this video upload time XD ahha it was long XD

anyway now i finally say tadeeda ( my NEW version of bye XD haha ) till the next time my random self decides to post sth XD ahaha

my birthday brilliantness ness ness

2008-11-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

ok this was the best birthday in the history of the seventeen years I've lived! haha seriously!! anyway this is a video i took of my presents haha i did not intentionally take this video to put on this blog it was a random thing i actually wanted to video my hamster then as an after thought i did this XD haha anyway hope you understand it XD haha its just as in cohesive as any other of my blog posts XD haha i truly am how i am a in videos as in blog entries and every other part of my mundane yet absolutely brilliant life! and i honestly cannot ask for anything more since that would make me terribly ungrateful! i got everything this birthday!!! i got great great unbelievable friends!!!

ok let me tell you how it went though its kinda silly for anyone to care how my bday went i'm still gonna tell it anyway cause it was that brilliant!!!!

1)firstest on the 19th i had guitar in the morning and timcampy "surprised" (i put "" for a reason : timcampy was terribly indiscreet about it XD haha phwail XD haha but it was very very very sweet!!! and i thank all for it!) me with a cake and card with almost everyone's little note inside(: it was very touching and sweet! (: [ in this post you will realise exactly how poor my vocabulary for happy words is XD ] after that i got a hamster : the one you see in the video, from one of my best friends who also appears in part 2 of my birthday XD haha

2)Also on the 19th of november the loveliest 3 best friends ever (1 from above) decided to bombarded (and i say this affectionately) me in the middle of the night at 1130 to wish me happy birthday face to face at the door of my house! i was completely unprepared and absolutely not dressed appropriately! therefore i will not show you the videos XD haha but it truly was a surprise that i will forever remember with its cake screams and wishes!!! haha it was plain wow haha at 12 they wished me happy official birthday and went off (: i really must give them BIG FAT HUGS AND BLUBBERY SQUEEZES to thank them for the lovely surprise of my lifetime (not very long life time but no ones been so sweet and nice to do this for me so yay!!!)

3) on the 20th of november (my official birthday, the day i was born, the day came to be, the day the world was doomed to face my randomness XD) 1 went breakfast with the same best friend from the above 2 parts, followed by the funnest game of cluedo and then lunch from 1 to 430 with ATIQAH!!! we talkededed loads we had a lot to catch up on (: haha anyway other then that we also went to the saloon! and btw this was all whilst i had the huge pink pig with me (given to me by a super uber nice guy known as weiliang! a big big thanks for it :D ) anyway i got my hair done and bought my dress at that time (: [ now i must thank the most sentimental person i know and so darn sincere!!! ATIQAH!!!! thank thank thank you!!! the gift really touched me to blinkers and tears (well i decided to refer to tears and blinkers so technically (or as technical as this can be ) i said tears and tears XD ahaha) and thank you weiliang for the pink pig!! it matches my room very very well :P haha thanks for the presey (: ]

4) now i know the birthday was very eventful (: haha anyway part four would be dinner with the last group of friends (: of course the other 2 from part 2 (not counting the one that appears in part 1 2 and 3 ) is involved here the darlings along with my other 2 lovely friends took me to kallang for a nice outing (: we had a simple dinner (they treateded me :D thank you btw!! ) followed by disappointment when the horrible ice ring ( ok its nice i'm just angry at it though its not its fault ) decided it was a good day to have hockey practice and bared us from the place T. T but! the night was not lost! we went k box and sang ENGLISH i repeat E.N.G.L.I.S.H english songs and danced around in the room XD haha we had brilliant fun even made a dance to abba's gimme gimme gimme song XD haha it was really a blast and i think i'm gonna die tmr (technically today) since my voice will be gone XD haha we ended the eventful birthday with my best friends great friends and good friends and all friends in general at 1230 (: [ i must must must must must! thank all su, jacq, steph and cam for the lovely night out! it was absolutely yay badalalala yeepiedodaday indescribable! thank you guys SOOOOOOOO much! ]

lastly i wanna say i am the luckiest girl alive to have such absolutely lovely (and supportive of my weird and erratic and eccentric behaviour) friends who made this 17th birthday the sexiest sweetest simply superb seventeenth birthday ever (: you're only 17 once and you guys gave it a banging start :D i can never ever thank you guys enough! (:

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: :D

random video i took after the first video XD ahha and just a ps: i got the wheel at kallang and the ball at sam's pets near pp (: ahaha so you know it was during part 4 and part 2 of my birthday respectively (: ahaha

2008-11-09T00:34:00.000+08:00

well ok finally promos are over and i think you'll be happy to hear (well whoever is sad enough to read this pathetic blog which existence is questionable) that i have been promoted...with pathetic grades duh but i get promoted to the insufferable j2 level of the dismal education system of singapore! brilliant!

other than that life has been as mundane as it could possibly be (:
i do as i normally do for holidays...i go for cca i eat i sleep and i stare at the screen of this computer till my eyes burn to dust! haha though now i actually attempt to do other things like sew! i will be domestic! haha what a hopeless cause XD haha ah well...it is the effort that counts XD haha

anyway.....!!! i was bored enough tonight( despite it being 1230 and i really aught to be sleeping) to read through old entries and saved emails and stuff and it brought back such distraught memories of june haha ok its not really the horrid its still very questionable if it was a good thing or a bad thing XD ( the actual situation it got me into that is) though now the outcome of that situation is probably the best thing of my life to be honest haha

life pretty much sucks per normal except for the brlliantness of the exception of the good-bad thing i had in june haha and of course family and the existence of technology XD haha well actually for now life seems to not suck at all really XD haha well i should stop gloating about my lack of a suckish life haha

anyway as always i'm watching some other anime which now turns out to be FMA and busolianjin some random shows that interest me though the later is rather creepy cause of a seriously freaky character XD i'm also currently playing maple story on a private server (don't judge me for my oddities! the game is not that bad! in fact its fun when you can mass kill [i sound like a murdering psychopath XD haha ]) and as usual i'm still playing my sims2 (my business is failing XD haha)

basically life is fun and nice but still i shall keep to my horrid word of not updating often since i'm far too busy with unnecessary nonsense and rubbish to update XD haha (though taking into account that this thing called updating is also unnecessary and nonsensical it just makes the lack of updating my neglect of dutiful rubbish doing! haha what complicated ramble XD haha ah well XD )

off i go to sleep my lazy pig head away XD haha offidoesie (this is some odd word i like to say and have no idea how to spell XD )

AVRILLLL!!!!!!

2008-09-10T13:38:00.000+08:00

GWAH!!!! That is all i can say. basically life sucks as usual since exams are coming again.... promos.......gah! death to all teenagers of the junior college community. haha BUT! life doesnt suck that bad since i finally got to go for a concert! yay!!!!! yes i went fot the Avril concert and omg it really was the best damn thing ever! haha i've become more bimbotic too XD haha the influence of bimboticity XD haha ...yes this very morbid girl has finally accepted the colour pink XD haha in fact its not that bad XD haha anyway....i'm still not exactly positive but eh...survivable XD haha other than the awesome awesome concert.....social life is great :P haha but education wise it still sucks i'm still stupid and i am getting so darn sian of school..............(EMPHASIS ON THE DOTS!) but what's new it has always been boring... ah well XD anyway gwah i should go do PW or study or sth......but wah!!! i really dun want to! haha oh yea fruit basket is so nice!!!!! haha and on another random topic...i feel fat fat fat! i keep eating and gosh i can feel myself gaining weight T.T so depressing.... haha ok i'm losing my mind and going even more random than before and even less bright than i thought i could be... gwah! okok i shall go now.... XD

i'll probably not blog in like forever as per normal...XD haha toodles people of this sad miserable world!!!

FREEDOM!

2008-06-30T19:09:00.000+08:00

YAY! exams are over i'm still random and my chinese still sucks like no other! yay
so well econs paper waws ok but geog i chose the wrong qn and math was plain horrid and last but not least chinese was predictably screwy.
today i had chinese a level oral which was equally screwy! dun care!basically that's it for exams and well school starts again tmr...):

anyway! went out with su yesterday and that was the best as usual! su is the best we talk squeal laugh play study all at best we can! it is the best when i hang with her cause she makes me happy! she is the greatest!we can talk all day and night and not run out of topics! there's just sop much to say and we can talk about everything under the sun! (:

yay! we basically had jap food and enjoyed each other's boy stories XD then we practiced for chinese oral today(: its so hard to discribe her awsomeness! and yes i know i spell things horridly but bah who cares! XD

anyway i have to go and prepare for results tmr ...T.T so not prepared for it....sure die! ah well ):

toodles(wow i say it as if i'm actually gonna come back alive XD )

random poems i wrote last year XD

2008-06-18T12:41:00.000+08:00

Reminiscence

I look into the darkness
See the past reflected
Upon the black surface
History replays

Silence speaks to me
Telling me to see
The scars of yesterday
Remains till this day

The past, its history
The shattered frames
Broken memory lane
Blood shed,
Tears fallen,
Hope crushed,
Dreams forgotten,
Prayers spoken,
Unheard.

Flash
The light blinds me
The room lies before me
I’m back in reality
My thoughts linger
Soundless…
I see.
A silent summary.

My notes: This poem expresses ability of a setting to encapsulate the overwhelming multitude of emotions from the mere revisiting of a tormented past. Sometimes silence gives the answer.

LIFE

Life feels meaningless
Hopes dampened
All work was useless
Drenched in despair

Goodbye life
Hello death
Thy can’t change fate
It’s a futile attempt

What can one do
Wish and pray
Will He hear thee
Or will thy’s voice stray

What message should thy send?
Questions or blame?
Wishes for tomorrow
Dashed yesterday

Still the flame lingers
Alight in the dark
Flickering slightly
Deep within the heart

So feed it fuel
Give it hope
Slowly but surely
It will grow

Then no more shall thy
Be plagued with depression
Life will regain meaning
Have its pull and attraction

So don’t give in
Too early in the game
It’s just begun
There’s much to gain

Hope and meaning
Will return and stay
As lady luck
Sways thy’s way

So forget
Life’s bitter encounters
Live for tomorrow’s
Little adventures

Note : wrote this during O's cause i was really feeling a bit like that...i think... hmmm XD

ME

Simple things please me
Complications blind me
To be or not to be
To live in reality
Appearance vs reality
That is me.
I am as Iago has said
I am not what I am
All you see is my duplicity
Love me despite the flaws and atrocities.

ok this one was just a random one i wrote XD

WAH! again...

2008-06-18T12:13:00.000+08:00

ok i know i just blogged like yesterday and said i wouldnt for a long long time which is the usual time i take to blog again but! i just got an email and now all i can think about is what it said and now i'm just gonna think about the email and not study which is a bad thing cause then i'll never finish and fail! T.T of all times why tell me now???? hmmmm!!!!

whilst you're gone away dunno dunno where and i'm stuck here to ponder without questioning you about it cause i have to pay money and i dun want to, cause mummy dearest will scream at me...ok i know this is a blog and i probably dont make any sense to the dear readers of this dismal blog since you guys dont even know what the hell i'm talking about but i have to rant somewhere and i shall rant here! its my blog i shall rant as i please! you guys can just ignore this post! haha

oh gosh gosh gosh!!!!!!!! *flips hair

more emotional turmoil this holiday....its so hard being a teenager but its scary to grow up so i dun want to....but gah! its hard........all confussed now (and no this IS a purposeful misspelling...it means confused and fussy at the same time XD)

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! gah!! poooo......this is horrid (well actually its a good thing (yay) but at the wrong time thus making it harder to describe what it is cause its not really horrid but wah!) gah....

well anyway i shall stop confusing the poor people who actually read this blog (despite it barely having anything at all.... XD)

toodles!

REALIZE by Colbie Caillat

2008-06-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

REALIZE by Colbie Caillat

[Verse 1:]
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
You know it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[Verse 2:]
Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

[Refrain:]
But I can't spell it out for you,
You know it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[Chorus:]
If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but.

[Verse 3:]
It's not all the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[Chorus:]
If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder

Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
Realize, realize

i like the lyrics of this song cause its kinda true (:
i like taylor swift songs too cause they seem really real(:

wah this sucks...

2008-06-17T15:48:00.000+08:00

life sucks right now...yet again since when was it not suckish! Ok i know i'm always rather morbid..or well the people that know me know XD and they also know i suck at spelling so too bad people! just try to understand what i say XD i'm weird cant do much bout it... though i am attempting to be a little more positive and more girly and well sweeter and stuff. HOWEVER! i phwail miserably (that was spelt wrongly on purpose!)

anyway i know i take forever to post cause i never have time in fact i should be studying now but i suck! XD hahahaha anyway(again...my goodness i like this word way too much XD) its been completely exhausting being in jc and everything (i got rejected by poly which sucks cause like dude i'm in jc now my grades obviously qualify me for poly! but ah well they didnt have space...) ... i have like 2 ccas and its hard enough in one (gymnastics which has training like 3 times a week) but i cant bear to give up any cause i love them both! guitar has great people and plus guitar playing is fun XD (though i suck and am not musically inclined except in singing, i guess, XD dunno must ask people who have heard me sing) <-- i believe that there are grammatical errors and spelling errors in there somewhere XD

back to the point ( my futile attempt not to use anyway though it now sounds funny XD)... well there wasnt really any point in the first place but none the less!... i still love switchfoot and finished clannad but thats really a small part... i should talk about life right now innit... well my heart feels like crap but i shan't bore the world (or whoever reads this blog which isnt very many people since i don't tell people about it XD ) with my emotional hardships since well who cares (i barely care...yet again i barely care about anything really XD ) [ i just realised how much i like the "XD" face....habit brought about by unnamed friend who should know who he/she is XD]

anyway... other than emotional pain i've also been through a truck load of physical pain too... ok maybe not a truck load but pain all the same...first its like a week before my GP and H1 papers and i'm doing gymnastics training. In particular i was doing vault. i jumped and reached a bit too far and ended up spraining my right hand fingers...nevermind about that...its like 2 days before the exam and i was doing, i think vault again, and around the same thing happened except this time it was my thumb and it got bent inward [instead of backwards like the other fingers the last time]and i couldnt write properly during the exams but because i didnt go to the English doc instead i went to a Chinese doc i didnt get extra time... now the joint still hurts. i went to see and english doc about it. he said all i got to do is get a jab but i hate jabs so i'm gonna leave it alone to heal since its not that bad anymore XD ALSO! i either broke or fractured my toe the doc said that it doesnt really matter cause the treatment is the same...well i stubbed my toe rather stupidly actually... i kinda kicked my sister's bed...but in my defence (for stupidity) her light was spoilt and flickered unbearably and i couldnt see properly! so thats about all the physical pain i've gone through other than the muscle aches from training and stuff XD

OH! for gym i'm like doing uneven bars though i'm not that good in it...in fact i'm not doing anything awesome just the basics but i'm going to compete anyway in july XD Still i love going for trainings cause its fun and the people are fun too (:

i met up with sec school friends recently too and it was a blast cause well we have so much to talk about! [mainly boys and boy problems {the problems are mainly the fact that we lack guys or i lack guys XD}] we went to watch Cam's band (as in rock band not like those orchestra things) play in her school and MAN! was it great...the next time was well just last friday (the 13th!) i didnt go for the main outing but i joined in for dinner(: it was really fun! those 4 girls are a blast to hang with! XD rather sad that we all split to different schools...

I've been deprived of going out with atiqah cause of the overly busy june due to the fact that mids are coming up right after this... so sad! but i will be going out with her once they are over! yay!

also i'm so happy for my sis since she got into like LAW in NUS! yay!!!!! :D she left for camp on monday though): so i await her return!

in fact both my sources for entertainment are gone this week so i'm rather miserable though its a good thing cause now i can study properly (however i'm blogging instead..but this is because i just remembered that i havent in a long long time XD ) Thus the title of "wah this sucks" XD

Anyway...other than the fact that i've been failing in alot of stuff not just exams but being a social retard..life been rather ok {not that morbid} school's fun since people are fun and well lessons arent that bad (: ccas great, time consuming, but great. and basically it only really sucks now cause of mids... june is a terrible holiday....T.T

oh yea...on a random super random note...i'm addicted to KOI bubble milk tea which is bad cause i'm growing fatter and fatter despite training 3 times a week...i've gone from round to rounder! though my sister denies this...i find that its unmistakable that i've gained fats...its so depressing...BUT! i'm too horrid to actually cut down my junk food intake XD i have stopped eating fast food but that's for training purposes cause fast food makes you tires faster...thus no more fast food! havent eaten that in a month or more (:

Anyway anyway anyway....basically life since my last post hasnt been very fruitful just simple life of project work (my group rocks though one girl who was also my good friend in class left to go to the arts school which name i cannot spell. all the same it rocks! (: ), exams, school, exams, emotional turmoil, exams, friends, and not to mention exams! ( feel the hate oozing from me as i speak the foul foul word called exams ) XD

well yup thats about it...life's a bore what can i do...or well maybe its not a bore its just that i cannot ever be bothered to write personal stuff on this blog and go all smuffy { dont aske me what it means it just sounds right XD } and stuff...or the fact that i dont remember things i should write about XD

All the same wait for the next post that will probably not be this long though will probably be posted after a long long break like this was (: XD

school

2008-04-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

Ok basically life pretty much sucks....i'm in jc but i dun realy feel like i want to be here. i kinda still feel like i should go to poly and its like driving me nuts. so if someone could help me that'll be useful...anyway in jc i'm screwing everything...and i have to learn cinese which i STILL suck in anyway....

On a happier note..and more random one
i like switchfoot
and vk now has an anime
and i'm wathcing clannad nowXD

i'm rather swamped with work so i don't really have much time on my hands...in fact i should go do my work...thus i shall be offXD

HEHE

2008-01-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

ok i know i suck at updating but i've been busy...you seeeeee...we've been repainting the house and well its tiring...my room is pink....this is the end of the world seriously...the day i have a pink room...AHHH!!!!...i'm succumbing to my bimbo side...darn...anyway...before repainting the rooms we went to malaysia...my family and i(duh)... shopping!!!! lots of stuffiesXD

haha but not much there...other than me going to sunway for the first time ever...got a tan...darn...i'm dark again...poo...anyway...after malaysia we painted the rooms...and i went to see poly open houses....nothing much really just me have a hard time choosing a school...but lets just wait for my results...speaking of which...it'll be out in a week! AHH!!!! so scary!....poppiecock...

well then now an update on animes i've been watching...yes i've been burning my eyes and my brainXD
-night head genesis(finished wats there)
-ghost hunt(finished)
-hmmm....there are others but i cant rmb...

anyway the most amazing would be the fact that i'm actually watching NARUTO...its irritating at first but you get past it and well ya fighting is niceXD
hahahahahaha....ya well thats bout it....not much goes on in my lifeXD

these few weeks...

2007-12-20T17:08:00.000+08:00

ok i finally changed rooms with my mom! yay! haha so fussy...pack like crap....so boring...and my nose has suffered way too much for it...so dusty...SNEEZ!!!!...haha...anyway...work is also so boring...keep on counting people...like death...lol..but you do get to observe the big bunch of slutily dressed people in orchard ;p haha...and penguin walking girls in 6 inch heels...very funny
XD haha anyway(again) life's been ok...some people freak me out ...i shant name anyone...irritating too...anyway...i finally got water babies...haha....its useless but cute! haha...SQUISH!...haha...also i've discovered the singer of the song i wanted since os...haha...RELIENT K!rocks man....rocks!haha...give until there's nothing left...its a lovely song...others by them too XD haha...but not all):
haha i'm less lazy today cause i'm bored haha anyway(again again)... i just watched finish another 2 animes....code geass and gakuen alice...lol...quite nice(:
haha
i'm a freak but i DUN CARE! haha i'll do as i pleaseXD...well off i go...haha

Sorry

2007-12-10T11:10:00.000+08:00

ok i know i said i'd blog after os but i've been swamped...prom outings...so much to do so little time...anyway...os went ok...and i have been playing like mad...eh...i found out i'm good at arcade guitar and blah blahXD haha alot of stuff happened so i'm lazy to write...anyway i like this new animes called d gray man and lovely complex...haha first ones all cool and stuff the second is funnyXD haha anyway...i'll be off to slack somemore! ahahahahahaha

pathetic...maybe...hmm..

2007-07-30T12:37:00.000+08:00

do you know wat..there are sad sad souls on this earth...
1 there's this girl i know that has a older bf that forces her to delete her blog and friendster accounts...and she obliges! gosh...where is her mind??
i guess she's academically smart since she's in a good school but like mindless nit! gosh...let your bf rule you...go a head...but yet again she's a junior so like its expected...DUMB...not to be mean or anything but...its true...plus she's a bitch...from wat i hear anyway XD

2 insecurities.....omg! there's this girl who called my friend just to say lay off my bf...like dude who wants to steal him?? he looks horrid...exactly why they both match so well...she has a broom head and a fat arse nose...while he just plain looks horrid XD so you can't blame her for being insecure i mean she looks like a broom for goodness sakes! can't blame her for the way she looks though...not her fault she was born butt ugly..but i can blame her for her actions...which is calling my friend and doing wat she did... B***h

3 the guy who is the bf of the girl in 1 was meant to be my friend's friend but he decided to back stab her so like wat kind of person is he?An Arse if you ask me....i shan't rant the situation which caused this bitching...but basically its just plain disgusting...he is a geek dork jerk...AND...again back to the girl in 1...how can she remain with this MCP, over possessive and down right rubbish guy...STUPID...

last but not least the guy that this whole situation started with....arsehole! to laugh...

anyway...i shall end my bitch rant...i will continue this when i can..(:

don't hate me for bitching today...its been tugging at me for days!! so this is the result of vent up bitching XD

i'll be nice the next time round...after os (:

And if you see this from a girl's point of view..its seriously GAH!!! so ya...anyway...i know i sound like a down right horrid person too caause i'm bitching here...haha...but its a pissy situation..anyway...take out the bitch part of it and see the situation that i did not elaborate on(:

anyway..don't hate me....haha

SLEEPY

2007-06-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

i've been super sleepy for the past 2 days of school...like dude i slept through the first 3 lessons of school only waking to copy the little notes we needed...i'm like why am i so sleepy???
ok i do sleep late but that's because i can't sleep any earlier....and besides... before the june hols i was just fine doing wat i did....but now i'm completely exhausted...i guess i need to get used to the swing of things again....
sigh...my grades are like crap for mids so i really need to get back on the horse and buck up....i've been slacking alot...me and my shows...sigh...i'm setting agoal to get 10 or below for my prelims.....and of course to pass chinese...haha..i hope i can reach that....i will perservere and work to get there...
so i won't be blogging till os are over on the 12 of november... so very sorry...but i'm doubtful that anything interesting would happen anyway...if so then maybe i'll blog about it...hha...but wat could possibly happen when all i do is study till 430 everyday in school...the only day i have off is tuesday..which i still have to study anyway... haha
and via typing now i am neglecting my ss so i shall be off...

i will do my best!!!

ps: su, jacq and i decided we will drink a bottle of water after every lesson to prevent us breaking out....haha...despite having to study our skin must remain healthy=P lalala...welll i really have to stop...WEEEEE....

akltg2

2007-06-21T12:03:00.000+08:00

so i went for akltg2 from the 13 t0 15...it was totally rocking! but painful...i was so not prepared for that much physical...and damn i hate running....gah...haha but at least i look better now...ahah...more fit...haha...ah well(: anyway...i met really great people and remet some old friends like marcelle and bryan(: haha...everyone was great...its like we all supported each other mentally, emotionally and in the end physically as well...haha..but dang it was fun(:
haha...i was the only girl in my group and i got hell for it too...haha..ok not exactly...lol....anyway...now i have no time to finish my work cause i realise i have drama the next few days and damn...i still hve chem to do....poo!!!ah well...not much i can do(:
haha
so anyway...i went out with a couple of them on sat and watched a movie...met new peeps there too...haha...well...not the point...i still need to go get ready for drama so bb(;
PS: i don't think i'll be updating much till os are over(: don't fret...i'll be back soon haha only 4 month to os....eeek!

PPs:i do not like hilton but that song is catchy for some reason
haha....ok now i seriously need to go;)

PEOPLE!

2007-06-21T10:01:00.000+08:00

i just realised that i have no one added in my links and i finally figured out how to get the tag there(: haha. well anyway... i need u guys to just type you link in the tag and i'll add you when i can ks(: sorry for the trouble but i absolutely have no access to the otjer blog so....i have to do this =P help me out k...THANKX!

reason

2007-06-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

okay so basically this is my new blog cause i forgot how to log in to my old one=P
yup so my old blog's called totallycrazed.blogspot if you wanna go...but i'll be updating here(:
ya...well...pretty much it...